Day 3

Yesterday I neglected to mention that the challenge was "Where do you see yourself in ten years?" Today is "Your opinion on drugs and alcohol."

My brother just flicked a fucking pencil in my face, my mom’s just being angry and I’m in a fucking awful mood, so let’s get this over with.

My opinion on drugs is that they’re illegal for a reason. They’re illegal because they damage your body and mind and make you an unstable person without the ability to function correctly. However, and I know this is hypocritical, but I’d like to start smoking. CIGARETTES. Because of how they increase your metabolism and help you lose weight. I hate the number on the scale and just want it to go away.

Alcohol is fine, as long as you don’t abuse it. But I also feel like if you’re something like a wino, it’s going to change your personality so it’s always on your mind. Because alcohol is a drug, too. I just don’t think it’s bad when used responsibly.

Day 2

I’m a month and a half away from my fifteenth birthday, so let’s just round and say that I’ll be 25 in ten years.

In a fantasy world, I’ve graduated college and have begun in a respectable place within the career I have chosen. I’m also either in a commited relationship, or engaged or married. I definitely want to start having kids sooner rather than later because of all of the health risks associated with pregnancies at older ages.

I mean, I know what I would want from domestic life, but that’s another post.

PS: There's a lot I plan to do before those ten years; I'm not just planning to have babies.

Soo, heyy...

I feel so removed from Kimja... I mean, this is by no means a popular blog on the interwebs, but it is the first form of social networking connection I had to strangers. Twitter, Formspring, Dailybooth, Tumblr, and others have followed within the last fifteen months.

No, I'm not leaving you guys. Not yet, at least. Far from it, actually, as you will see by this post. I plan on doing ANOTHER Tumblr Challenge on here. I know it'll work out this time because I'm on Tumblr like crazy, and all of my posts will basically be copied and pasted onto this blog, so anyone who cares enough to learn about me will be able to easier find the information.

Today, since I already did Day 1, I'll post it here:

Day 1--Your current relationship. If single, discuss how single life is.
I’mma single lady, I’mma single lady.

I mean, being single is fine, but I’d love a relationship. I don’t have one, single, clearly defined crush right now, but I’m interested and really considering the potential in relationships with some guys. But, I think I’ll just wait. A couple of people know one of the guys, but two of the other guys I’m thinking about, no one should have any clue. If I ever really, really like a guy, I can’t keep my mouth shut. And, you know, this isn't love, but definite infatuation.

So, I’m alone, but hopeful and optimistic.

I won't even explain what happened between me and my last boyfriend, who was mentioned on here several times.

My Fictional Neighbor

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This week's topic: What book character would you most like as your next-door neighbor?

I've read a load of books in my life, so this is really difficult. But, you all know me well enough to not be surprised that I pick Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's. She's suc a fun character, and the neighbor of the narrator, who adores her as well.

Of course, she ends up breaking his heart, but being a girl would make being her neighbor much more fun. She'd totally be my wing-girl. Being a "Girl-About-The-Town" gave her enormous access to parties, and dates, and clothes.

And, girl-to-girl, you could have some amazing deep conversations. There were hints to sexual abuse, and other difficulties in her life and that gave her a depth beyond her superficial appearance. And that's why I chose her.

100 Facts About Me--Inspired by a Twitter Trend

1) My middle name is Ann and my Confirmation name is Susanna. Okay, you can stop laughing now.
2) I'm a Phantom of the Opera fanatic.
3)I hate me body, namely, my lovehandles.
4) My favorite books series is the Mediator series by Meg Cabot. Go read it. Now.
5) I love Sex and the City and my favorite character is Charlotte, followed closely by Carrie.
6) My ideal mate is a blonde.
7) My dream job is to be an interior designer.
8) Or modelling.
9) I believe in love.
10) I'm unbelievably lazy.
11) Black, white, and red is the best color combo ever.
12) Iced Chai is the best drink ever. But it has to be from Starbucks.
13) Pink is an amazing color.
14) Audrey Hepburn is my idol.
15) I really want to, against my better judgment, take up smooookinggggg.
16) Armani models are the most gorgeous men alive.
17) I would kill for an iPhone.
18) Shoes are VERY important.
19) I plan on marrying either an Irish or Scottish man.
20) When I was a little kid, I would've killed to be a ginger.
21) I have over 100 scars on my legs.
22) My favorite place is the Internet.
23) I forge close relationships with my teachers because they're the only people that aren't totally infantile.
24) Pancakes are amazing.
25) I love all genres of music.
26) Eyeliner is a life saver.
27) I don't like my face.
28) I don't understand why people think it's so cute when I say the word "skeevy."
29) My favorite poet is Lord Byron. By far. No competition.
30) I know the whole first stanza of SHE WALKS IN BEAUTY by heart.
31) Fairy Tales are my favorite type of story.
32) I think Gail Carson Levine is a literary genius.
33) Law and Order SVU is one of my favorite shows.
34) I can't stand Titanic's unhappy ending.
35) I used to read Calvin and Hobbes like a Belieber read the boy's biography.
36) Cheese is one of my favorite foods.
37) I've been asking my mom to get me cream puffs for three and a half months and she has yet to get me any.
38) I really wanna use hashtags on Facebook.
39)Junior guys are my favorite because they're all so chill.
40) Trying to change myself for a boy is one huge regret of mine.
41) My last relationship was a soul-suckin, spirit-draining experience, but I refused to acknowledge it becaise I was afraid of being the "bad guy."
42) One of my proudest moments was when a friend of my parents called my blog, "brilliant."
43) I used to want to work as a Marie Claire editor. Now I'm completely unsure.
44) I'd rather have a white picket fance than a successful career.
45) I want to be a mermaid when I grow up.
46) Or a princess.
47) I'm totally insecure about my eyebrows.
48) I'm blind. like, I legit cannot see without beyond powerful contacts that also correct astigmatism.
49) Im censoring this because I'm afraid my mother will see it.
50) I've never read Harry Potter.
51) Angel is the sexiest vampire ever.
52) I have this crazy idea the Nintendo should make a Mario theme park.
53) I'm terrified of beng unloved, ugly and overwieght when I'm older.
54) I hate glasses.
55) Dailybooth is my favorite social networking website. Even if it is the most creeper-ful one.
56) Formspring makes me laugh.
57) ModCloth is amazing.
58) I'm going to see Phantom of the Opera on Tuesday and I am so psyched!
59) My first duty is to my family. My second is to my friends. But Morgen is family.
60) I'm allergic to all blackhead cleansers.
61) I want to leanr Farsi.
62) I love Brooklyn accents.
63) I hate being blamed for things I haven't done. HATE.
64) My family is a big bully. I mean it. I lvoe them, but they're bullies.
65) I really want te sparkle Uggs.
66) I have no clue what to wear to POTO.
67) If you don't know what POTO means: *smacks*
68) I need a back massage badly.
69) I laugh whenever I see this number.
70) I am aware of the fact that that is really immature.
72) I'm watching Harry Potter right now, ironcally.
73) I think it's really dumb that people put their FB education and work as Hogwarts.
74) I love green eyes.
75) Castles will beat every other form of architecture forever.
76) Super Mario Sunshine is the best video game ever.
77) I get major anxiety when people are mad at me.
78) I have a crazy violent temper. Do not provoke me.
79) I love clothes.
80) I am SUCH A GIRL.
81) I love curly hair.
82) If I could choose when to live, I would choose the 18th century.
83) Pirates of the Carribbean is the best movie ever.
84) Ke$ha has a beautiful voice.
85) I love Tumblr.
86) I want a corset.
87) Don't yell at me. I have a chronic headache that never goes away.
88) Falling Slowly is the best love song ever.
89) I am addicted to gum.
90) I use my head more than my heart. I'm quite proud, but it makes me very nervous.
91) I'm actually pretty shy.
92) Classical music is the best kind of music.
93) I am very sensitive to smells.
94) My favorite store is a tie between Forever 21 and Lord & Taylor.
95) Sicilian is the best kind of pizza.
96) If you say I am from Sicily, I WILL be offended.
97) I love writing.
98) I'm considering starting to do beauty pageants.
99) I'm so relieved that I'm almost done.
100) I believe in miracles.

Just Me Being A History Buff

I love history. And for some reason the life of Marie Antoinette has always been a life particularly fascinating to me.

I'm sure most people, when thinking of Marie Antoinette, think of a silly, materialistic queen. Perhaps the quote, "Let them eat cake!" comes to mind. Well, I feel pity. That little bit of a prick that comes to a corner of your heart, that is what I feel.

Marie's marriage was created to keep the alliance between her home country of Austria and France, so she wan't even French to begin with. However, the people of the French court were racist against her Austrian heritage and that made her somewhat of a social pariah in Versailles. Her own husband, Louis XVI, was cold to her in public setting because he was raised to be mistrustful of Austrians.

Speaking of Louis, he was also cold to her. Her safety on the throne of France was dependent upon consummation, or the first time they slept together, and the birth of the Dauphin, or the next king of France. And it took their marriage a little over three years to be consummated. So, he was emotionally stark to his wife.

Not to mention the indignities. What kind? The kind where she had to leave behind everything related to Austria and her previous life upon entering France. The first thing that happened when she entered France was that she was stripped down and dressed up. All of the sttendants and her pets and everything were left behind. She entered France wholly vulnerable, without a fmailiar face or anything, really, that could have given her comfort. Or, how the whole court of Versailles had the privlege of going and watching her give birth. Come on, who wants to have people, a lot of people, watch them give birth? Her first birth was so traumatic that she actually ended up hemorrhaging and losing consciousness and other bad things.

She gave birth to four children, three of whom died before reaching full adulthood. One died in infancy, one as a child of seven, and then one who died at age ten in prison. In prison! I know this was common for the time, but losing a child must still cause extreme and immense pain beyond my youthful capability of perception.

This was followed by the vicious lies and rumors that circulated, resulting in the French Revolution. While she was frivolous, and did spend a great amount of money, her extreme consumerism is understandable. Imagine your life, dignity and family being dependent on a marriage with someone exceedingly cold towards you, in a place where you were hated, ruling where you were hated. Her life was very sad. I would've turned to shopping, too. A lot of people would. Material items are used to fill emotional voids. Not that it exactly justifies putting the whole country into debt. But, it was also French aid to the American Revolution that put the country into great debt. And because their aid was key in winning the war, I doubt that most people would complain of that.

Now do you get why I am sympathetic? Maybe you don't understand why I am empathetic, but I don't think I can explain the sadness that pierces my heart when she is brought up in conversation and ridiculed.

Why Feminism Is Not A Priority To Me

Don't think, because of that title, that I'm someone who doesn't care about or respect the rights many people have fought for, for my gender. I am extremely aware and grateful, however in this society where our rights are equal in terms of what we can and cannot do, I feel it no longer necessary to promote ourselves and say: "I am a woman, I am probably better than man." Because that's just obnoxious. We are two genders that are created to be equal.

How can I say that being a woman is harder? Have I been both? I have not. Have I had children? No. Have I been kicked in the nuts? No.

Yes, women have been demeaned in society for nearly all of history, and continue to be so, now. I just think it's frivolous to devote yourself to the rights of American women when there are places where neither gender has any rights, like the impoverished or war-torn, or most recently, tsunami-torn civilizations of the world.

In America, the general view is that women HAVE received rights. You complain of sexism from jackass guys? Well, guess what: we reciprocate. For every sandwich-making kitchen joke, there's a penis size joke.

The genders are dependent on each other to reproduce. Women say they can have a baby without a man, and, yes, this is true. You can go to a sperm bank and get your baby batter there. Men can also have a baby without having a female partner. They're called surrogates. But guess what! If men didn't want to give sperm, and women weren't surrogates, and our genders were pitted against each other, our species would die out.

So, cool your egos and know that there are bigger issues in the world. Feminism in America is about as important as Harry Potter. That may seem pretty important, but, once again, it is an entirely frivolous matter.